Day 5, Evening.
I met Nanthon. Finally I met him. I've been waiting. I really needed to talk to him. So he brought me on the hill, in Bree. For a talk.
I told him everything. I told him I knee what's the matter. I told him I knew what's happening between him and Bar...I told him everything. I wanted to solve the problem. I wanted to help. I wanted to talk to Barudric myself, apologize. I sensed something. Something is nearby, hiding. Watching. Listening. But I turned my attention back to Nanthon. I knew one thing. They needed him more then me. I needed him more then them. I revealed to Nanthon all my feelings. No, I didn't. He realized. He knew without my words. Because I can't hide anything. I am a bad lier, I know that.
So he decided to help me, he accepted my idea. I am glad. He is a good friend. So we started walking down the hill, towards the inn. Nanthon sensed something too. It was Nightcrawler. He was hiding. Listening to the talk. A private talk. He is a fool. The biggest fool I've met. Anger. Anger again. It's...flowing in me. I am not controlling myself.
I open my eyes. Nightcrawler is leaving. Angry. But I am not angry anymore. Did I cause that? Something is wrong with me.
We go to Pony. Me and Nanthon. We wanted to find Barudric. Because I wanted to talk to him. Nanthon was right. Barudric was in the Pony. I am getting nervous. I'll need to confront him again. But it's my decision. So I did. He was with Kahina. Not surprised. I see Nanthon is not surprised too. Kahina left. To talk to Nanthon. Now it's me and Barudric. One on one. Alone.
I asked him for a talk. He agreed, I think. He was sitting on the bench. I sat in front of him. I wanted to look at him. It's been so long since I last saw his face. His eyes. Him. I told him everything. I told him everything I knew. Everything I told Nanthon. My only purpose - settle the argument between him and Nanthon. Because I was the guilty one. I admitted my fault. I admitted the mistake I've done. Bu I didn't want. No one ever told me about Barudric. That he was in the company. Nightcrawler doesn't like him. Now I remember! I roared at Nightcrawler. Because of Barudric. That's why he left us, angry. I was angry at Barudric too. But...for a reason which I've been hiding all the time. And I don't want to tell Barudric. I don't want to ruin his life. I tried to persuade him. Persuade to stay with us. Help us. Because we need him. I need.
He stood up. He was leaving. He got a carving from somewhere. He left it on the table. Saying, that it is for me. He left. I looked at the carving. I remembered him giving to me one of those before. When we were together. I looked at it. Tears. I wipe my face. It's wet. I hugged the carving and fell on the table. Crying. I tried. I failed.
