So...
Back to square one.
I... went and looked at the divorce papers. Had to. Something just... told me I needed to look at them. But... I regret listening to it.
Turns out I'm still married; Gyth didn't sign the papers like I had thought he did, for so long... even he thought he signed them.
What makes the regret so much harsher is that... Andel was with me. He saw them, too...
Twice this year my heart has been broken. My heart says I love my husband, but it's also saying I love Andel, and... it can't make up its mind...
Andel and I brought our relationship to an end, after we departed the Town Hall... it wasn't me who did it, either...
And he was going to...
I better stop there. It just hurts more, so some things are better left unsaid here... but... he said he was going to return to Rohan. I thought he'd already gone, but... Imagine my surprise when I saw him with... I believe he said the girl near him was his sister--definitely looks it, so very likely a younger sister--saying that they were going on a journey and would be gone for some months.
I can't focus, anymore. I know, I have kids to care for, my own daughter included in it. But... I just want to run away... even if it's just for a little while.
I told Gyth of the discovery, and... well, his response was completely unexpected, yet understandably so. I still don't know why he told me that Dalesmen don't believe in divorce, yet he submitted the divorce papers--which only adds to my confusion--and... I don't understand why he would sign something he doesn't believe in.
It's completely up to him if he signs them, now... even if it causes me another round of heartbreak and might cause me to lose my mind... even if I don't want him to...
... I might need to run away after all...
- Erimyl
