"Smile, though yer heart is aching....Smile. Even though it's breaking. When there are clouds...in the sky...ye'll get by....If ye smile through yer pain and sorrow...Smile...and maybe tomorrow...Ye'll see the sun come shining through...for you...."
Since I moved in with the Woodmen I've been trying to keep myself busy. Surrounded by pups, nice people, and such peaceful trees....how can I still be so unhappy? Feel so alone? I try to keep my mood up. It is so hard. I'm over Andrass. The man who didn't love me. Done. It is Da and my brothers I miss the most.
"Light... up your face with gladness....Hide... every trace of sadness. Although a tear may be ever so near...."
Oh! A pup! Such a sweet lad. One of the guard dogs. I should learn their names. Maybe I should start making treats for them? Let's sit and have a cuddle with the pup. Maybe tell him a story while I mend this tunic? Sounds like we are about to be interrupted my friend. By....A Hound-Friend! Looks like my little friend is a lass. A lovely Lady Brenn. Oops. She doesn't seem to mind. I hope he doesn't mind the leaves on his tunic. It was the only way I could think of to hide the stitches so it didn't LOOK like wolves tore it up.
He likes it! Says I have many talents! I hope he likes the stew. I should have added meat, but I didn't want to pull anything from their stores. The ingredients for the stew I grew myself. I hope they don't mind I cooked for them.
He is smiling again. Too brief this time. Maybe he isn't feeling well? His throat? Or stress from the job? No complaints when I checked his throat. Good sign. He is so obliging and fun to flirt with. He flirts back. I wonder if he is in earnest? I hope he isnt seeing someone...or married. He isn't!!!!!!!! Calm down. Calm down. Just because he is available doesn't mean he likes you. Why do you care any ways??? What has gotten into you, Leo? You aren't usually this boy crazy.
Wood-Sculptor and Alaric have joined us! Nice to see her again. Little smile..sort of. Better than the gloomy frown from before. Why do I have this urge to make everyone here smile? I know I am a little obsessed with seeing people happy, but this is ridiculous. Specially when it comes to Hound-Friend. He is something....
Seems he and Wood-Sculptor are heading into town to sell her carvings. I wish them luck. She asked if I was coming. No, I think I will leave them to their walk without having to worry about me tagging along. There is that grin again. Come on, full smile. Give it to me. I can take it! Another grin! What? Did I....? Did I just see what I thought I saw? Is he enjoying my flirting?! He is!!!!! Wait. Do I want him to enjoy it? Am I ready for that again? Well, maybe not something serious, but I could take a lover like Hound-Friend suggested. Find a companion to fill my bed. I wonder.....
